It never ceases to amaze me how, having been a Christian for as long as I have, I am still inconsistent and easily distracted from the truth, the Word, the promises, the Spirit…from everything that really matters. I woke up in the middle of the night last night and immediately thought (I have no censors at that hour of the morning), “Well, no wonder you’ve been struggling so much…you’re hardly praying, you’re hit-or-miss with the Word, and you pretty much focus on yourself all the time these days. Yep…pretty much a recipe for trouble.”
Nice way to wake up in the pre-dawn. But still, my conscience was right. I can’t expect stellar growth and great mental/emotional stability when I’m not consistently feeding myself on spiritual realities. I can’t even expect little steps forward when I’m not correctly focused. So, this morning, I went back to my Bible before Xanga time (it had been reversed for a while). And it is a beginning…
Other than such musings, I am leading an unexciting life these days. I did get that one last portfolio graded yesterday, so I have 22 left to go. That sounds like a lot to me. Especially since I want to get them done in two days (today and tomorrow), so I don’t have to go down next week at all. But I think I’ll just see how today goes before I stress about it too much. I may just have to bring some home with me tonight and grade in the evening, too. We shall see…
I talked to Karen on my way home last night. Then we had pizza for dinner (homemade). I would’ve rather gone out for dinner, but Eric really didn’t want to spend the money. So we looked at all the stuff we had and decided to make a pizza. We sat on the couch, ate pizza, and watched television. Then we went for a meander through the neighborhood (it turns out Eric wanted to see how his lawn compared to other people’s 
). Then we watched more television. Then we went to bed. See…not an exciting night, for sure!
EDIT (8:41): OH! Something exciting did happen recently. I forgot until just now (for some reason), but this month, we paid off my entire student loan from grad school. I now owe the government NO money! WOO HOO!!!
Anyway, today I MUST remember to take the garbage out before I head to CU. Not much of a plan, but there it is! Happy Thursday, all!
May 1, 2008
good luck on the grading!
homemade pizza sounds lush!
so how did your lawn measure up?
May 1, 2008
@bethelaine – apparently, we are one of the better neighborhood lawns. At least Eric thought so!
May 1, 2008
wooooohoooooo for paying off your student loans!!!!!! what an amazing feeling! (not that i would know personally…. i’m still working towards that day!)
May 1, 2008
HAH! Eric is a Lawn Nazi!!!!! (Our son John calls the guys in his neighborhood that…he is their bane…)
Epiphanies come like that. Cool, huh?
You not only OWE no money, YOU’RE GOING TO GET FREE MONEY!!!!!!!!
May 1, 2008
Just FYI: You’re not the only one who struggles with such things. Just this morning, I took time to read my bible but there was no time prayer since I HAD to get the house ready for guests at lunch…Now I ask myself,” Which was more important, prayer time or lunch plans?” I didn’t have a good answer. We’ll need to hold each other accountable!!
May 1, 2008
Yay for paying off loans!! SUCH a nice feeling!!
Old Man across the street is our Lawn Nazi. Everyone else is pretty much like us!
May 1, 2008
Congrats on paying off the loan! That’s HUGE!
May 1, 2008
We also call people lawn nazis. We don’t really have any near us. Although one of our neighbors is very anal about their lawn care equipment. They wash it after every use!
I remember paying off my student loans. It was a nice feeling!!
May 1, 2008
Hooray for no more loan! How exciting! I need to get on board with you on the Bible first, Xanga 2nd plan!
May 2, 2008
Your first paragraph is exactly what I am struggling with. I am glad I am not the only one!
May 5, 2008
Congrats on paying off your loan – that is so awesome!