So much for the end of the long haul (see last post).
After that one good night’s sleep, we’ve been downhill since. They aren’t sleeping. I’m not sleeping. I have no idea why.
And I hit a wall. Actually more than one.
One was at 4:30 am last night, when I was pleading with God to make my babies sleep and get me through the night.
There was another one about 4:30 this afternoon, when my nerves had finally had all of Alex’s shrieking that they could take. I left him and Erin in their high chairs in the kitchen and went to a different place and cried.
I hate hitting those walls. But I need Friday to get here fast.
And I’d appreciate any/all prayers that I’d survive this week with some level of sanity intact. Right now, that’s starting to look questionable.
Thanks.
April 28, 2010
Praying for you!!
April 28, 2010
great. now I’m crying.
praying it gets better.
April 28, 2010
Praying for you, friend! I’m so sorry things are so hard right now!!
April 28, 2010
aww, man. i just read this. 🙁 i hope things are better now and that they are sleeping. hang in there mama…keep your expectations low (is that an awful thing to say? maybe it is, but it sure has helped me a lot.) and here: these are three of my favorite songs to listen to when i hit those walls. (me & the wall–we’re great friends/enemies.)
SCC-(i think the first line will be especially meaningful. :))
CU
KG
April 28, 2010
Oh, stink. Praying, Shan. I don’t know if it helps, but all of us mamas have been there. It is stinky. I know it will get better. Believe me. And strapping kids into high chairs so you can cry in peace is a perfectly acceptable coping mechanism. You can also go out to the backyard in the quiet for 5 minutes while they shriek in the house. Sip on something leisurely with all the doors and windows closed. Enjoy the sunshine. It’s refreshing for the burnt-out mama soul. And Lord, please bring rest to these kiddos so my friend can rest.
April 29, 2010
Praying for you and your babies. I pray that all of you get some such needed rest. Yes, all mothers have been there. You are not alone, even though it feels like you are. When my girls were babies, I have left them in the cribs so I could go and cry. It is perfectly okay to do that. I hope today is better for you and your babies.
April 29, 2010
((hugs!!)) upholding you in my prayers today, shannah!
April 29, 2010
One of my friends once told me that when her first two kids were young (and about a year apart), she put them both in their cribs and went out and sat on the curb in front of her house. Because that was as far away as she was legally allowed to go. 😉
April 29, 2010
Praying for you!!! Tears are sometimes the best medicine, that is for sure.